Kendall Card 2.0

It seems I’m wearing shoes that don’t quite fit…yet. They feel a bit larger than I’m usual.

Truth be told, I was let go.

“You’re letting me go?” I asked myself. (Those are the words he used.)

Surprisingly, I didn’t feel anger or an overwhelming sense of sadness or fear. The only response I could come up with was “this is interesting”.

It is an interesting event, being let go from an employer. Particularly one where I and others felt that I was an asset to the whole.  However, I learned long ago that everyone is replaceable. To think otherwise is mere ego and naivety. Like all individuals, I too had weaknesses, points I could have improved upon.

From this vantage letting go is not the trap door immediately falling out from underneath. This letting go feels more like holding a dove you release your grasp and it takes flight.

It was a tall order to be in a role with no ruler by which to measure my success, no metric to meter my progress, little guidance or vision of the road ahead. Left to myself to conceive and achieve, I now see that I took on too much and accomplished too little from the many directions I charted.  Focus should have been my discipline.

Interestingly, I now find myself in a similar role – one where I am left to chart my future, one where I will measure my success, where I will envision the road ahead.

From my previous post this week I quoted CFO Scott Klossner of Backcountry.com when he wrote about General Robert E. Lee regarding leadership:

Lee said; “Ruminating over a decision keeps a commander from dealing most effectively on the next situation.”

As commander of Kendall Card 2.0 it seems that although these new shoes don’t quite fit right now they are the shoes I’m now wearing.  Any ruminating about what could have/should have been done, other than to glean points from which to enhance my forward motion will keep me from the greater accomplishments that lie ahead.

Adieu Backcountry.com. I too am letting go.